So... when I was pregnant, I posted this on my "Pregnancy Journal". I was determined to give breastfeeding another try since it really didn't work out with Olivia and I was so miserable the whole time....
I got myself a good pump and it all seemed to be going "well". Gaby was adjusting well to the boob and she was satisfied with the milk I was giving her....
Well, two days after she was born it all changed; my nipples started getting extremely sore and she kept fighting me to eat. I felt like I was reliving those moments I experience when I first had Olivia but I still tried....
Then I got really sick (see previous post) and my milk started drying up. Since I was admitted to the hospital I couldn't breastfeed her so I kept pumping but less and less milk came out and by yesterday night, not even one drop would come out of either side...On top of that, I was given a bunch of meds for my infection, which didn't really help either.
After much thought and consideration, I realized (once again) that breastfeeding just isn't for me and that I am a much happier person with a much happier baby when I formula feed, so that's what I'm going for.
I don't feel guilty at all because I think breastfeeding is a very personal choice and I am confident that by feeling happier I will be able to make my family happier as well....
So... formula.. here we come!
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